January 6th, 2008

01-06-07 [Sunday]

Oh man I'm so disgusted...
What have I grown to be?
Something I promised myself I wouldn't be?
But does it really apply to me?
I warn and warn and warn, sure, no one listens, but I've made sure they know.

Ugh.

And I also miss you.
I'm sure you don't feel the same, and I'm sure you're not even aware of me, but I do.
So many things left unsaid and it's disappointing how something so wonderful to me has just kind of...died away.
I just want to sit with you and just talk.
It doesn't have to be anything more than that.
I just miss you.

*sigh*
Why am I just a disastrous person?
I ruin people is what I do...
I'm possibly the worst influence ever.
I don't even know...
I don't mean to, I really don't, but that doesn't change anything does it?

I'm sorry for everything.
But I know part of me doesn't regret it.